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Friday, February 24, 2006
It's over. Well at least it ended in a friendly manner. I like that, coz a friendly break up hardly ever occurs to me. I wanted to end it before, wanted so much to in your face, insist that we had to put a full stop to our relationship. But even so, i wanted so much to take it all back..
I knew right from the start that it wouldnt last. And yet, i wanted to jump into that relationship, to believe it could last forever. I loved you. I really did. But maybe, i wasnt used to the way i was treated by you. Unlike my previous relationships, i didnt ask about your whereabouts, or demand for your attention. All i needed was someone to be there for me. All i needed was for someone to say "I love you" and mean it at the same time.
I realise now after this relationship, that i should start growing up already. There's no point in crying, no point in brooding day and night, 24/7 over something that didnt work out. Even though my feelings for you hasnt changed, i dont have to be all emotional just to show you how i feel. You taught me how to sacrifice again, and you tried your best to make me smile all the time. Just like how i tried making you smile too..
I wonder what you are thinking of now..
Just a few days ago, one of my friends showed me a short film from youtube.com. It was about this guy, Chee Kiong, who had a crush on another guy, David (this means he's gay - DuH! =P) when he was in JC. Unfortunately, David was straight and avoided Chee Kiong after realising he had a crush on him. Although Chee Kiong kept on persisting, all the more David avoided him. So after 3 years of persistance, Chee kiong decided to end it all - By killing himself..
Believe it or not, it is a true story coz I read the deceased blog. Sigh.. Sad.. 12:10 AM
Friday, February 24, 2006
It's over. Well at least it ended in a friendly manner. I like that, coz a friendly break up hardly ever occurs to me. I wanted to end it before, wanted so much to in your face, insist that we had to put a full stop to our relationship. But even so, i wanted so much to take it all back..
I knew right from the start that it wouldnt last. And yet, i wanted to jump into that relationship, to believe it could last forever. I loved you. I really did. But maybe, i wasnt used to the way i was treated by you. Unlike my previous relationships, i didnt ask about your whereabouts, or demand for your attention. All i needed was someone to be there for me. All i needed was for someone to say "I love you" and mean it at the same time.
I realise now after this relationship, that i should start growing up already. There's no point in crying, no point in brooding day and night, 24/7 over something that didnt work out. Even though my feelings for you hasnt changed, i dont have to be all emotional just to show you how i feel. You taught me how to sacrifice again, and you tried your best to make me smile all the time. Just like how i tried making you smile too..
I wonder what you are thinking of now..
Just a few days ago, one of my friends showed me a short film from youtube.com. It was about this guy, Chee Kiong, who had a crush on another guy, David (this means he's gay - DuH! =P) when he was in JC. Unfortunately, David was straight and avoided Chee Kiong after realising he had a crush on him. Although Chee Kiong kept on persisting, all the more David avoided him. So after 3 years of persistance, Chee kiong decided to end it all - By killing himself..
Believe it or not, it is a true story coz I read the deceased blog. Sigh.. Sad..
Reach my prismic soul.
The Girl
Eva Marie
aka Black Samara.
Hatefully Twenty-one.
Musician
Drummer
Vocalist
Writer
Giggist
Poet.
Loves
Mozerella cheese
Mee sua
Meiji plain crackers.
Music
Screamm
Guitars
Drumming
Singing
Rocking out.
Chilling at Starbucks/Spinelli
Goofing around.
Black eyes.
Black nails.
Black heart.
Hates
Cucumbers
Dog food.
Posers
heart breakers.
YOU.
Unconditional Desires.
My own Orange County Drumset.
To get my diploma in music next year.
Learn double pedals.
Get Married.
Get my future parents in laws to like me.
The endless connections.
Mix the words up.
You have my thanks.
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